Part 1 I wrote this years ago in what I can only describe as a frenzy. At the time, I was living in a level of fear, instability, confusion, and isolation that is difficult to properly explain now. The isolation was deafening. Looking back, I honestly can’t say for sure whether these were even “my words” in the traditional sense, or what it sounds like when a nervous system finally stops being able to carry something quietly. The first part of this piece reflects what it felt